The world has been bruised and battered this weekend. Honestly, I am mostly just sad. Deeply, achingly so. I don't really know what else to say; I feel as if so many places - Japan, Beirut, Syria, Paris, likely far more than just those I can remember off the top of my head - have received such an unfair helping of heartache.
So really, I have spent these past few days trying to keep busy and not focus on all of this sadness. There is just so much to go around, it's rather tough to ignore it. I'm not sure how to process all of this. Or how we are meant to pick up the pieces and keep moving forward.
But I think what does help a little bit is all of these stories of the goodness of humanity. I feel like times like these seem to bring out the worst as well as the best in people, you know? So I have tried to immerse myself in the latter rather than the former, and it is making things a little more okay. There is always light somewhere; I think perhaps it is just difficult to see it.
In mental health news: my therapist has broached the idea of starting on antidepressants. I am already on anxiety medication, which has certainly helped with panic attacks - but she believes that antidepressants might speed up the healing process more, especially with hyperacusis.
(Which, I might add, is a beautiful thing to hear. I cannot tell you how horrible it is to have such a rare disorder - no one really seems to know what to do with it, if they know what it is at all.)
But my therapist thinks that perhaps antidepressants combined with the anxiety meds could also help with hyperacusis. And so we are going to discuss with my family and talk to a psychiatrist - it certainly isn't confirmed yet, but I will let you know once progress is made.
Those two things took up most of my weekend, and so I really don't have much other news to share with you lovelies today. (Other than this: I have been wrangling MailChimp! I still have not gotten around to sending my first newsletter yet, but you will be pleased to hear that I have made progress on conquering the beast of technology.)
How was your weekend, then? Let's chat in the comments. I would love to hear about it. xx