The truest kind of blooming in the launch of my latest book, Portrait of My Body as a Crime I’m Still Committing, at the Merry Lion last Tuesday, loud & gleaming, honey-tongued & wound through with warmth, broken not like horses but like dawn.
I can’t thank enough the incredible performers who donated their talents to sharing my little poems at the event: Jennifer Anne Champion (who read “Self-Diagnosis” & “New York City Probably Has An Anxiety Disorder”), Elizabeth Fen Chen (who read “Pandora” & “Call Me Before You Leave Again”), & Natalie Wang (who read “When My First Boyfriend Learned I Was On Antipsychotics, He Laughed & Told Me He Always Suspected I Was Crazier Than I Let On” & “The Night You Are Diagnosed”). Also, Stephanie Chan, who organised & moderated the launch, Jarod from Sweetz Memoirs for the photographs, & the Merry Lion for such a kind, welcoming venue. & of course, last but the furthest thing from least, my beautiful parents, who critiqued my outfit & drove me to the venue & helped me carry boxes of books up the stairs & took many videos & supplied me with small bills when I realised I had none with which to make change. No part of publishing happens alone though it can often look that way on the surface, & I couldn’t have pulled off a night so unshakeably gorgeous without any of these people even if I tried.
The night honestly went by so fast that I can barely remember most of it, but it was a clear & conscious joy to spin story & song for you, hug so many readers, squint in the stage lights, listen to my dear friends perform my words, sign books & books & books. I’m so grateful to all who came out for gifting me with your presence, whether we were able to connect or not. (As a side note, my favourite photograph from the launch has to be the fifth one above—one reader’s reaction to seeing me for the first time!)
Portrait of My Body as a Crime I’m Still Committing is available to purchase online for $7 as a PDF version or $15 as a paperback, as well as in BooksActually & Kinokuniya. Plus, I’m hosting a little giveaway with my lovely friend Trista Mateer, author of Honeybee, for both of our latest releases—if you’d like to try your luck, do head over to Twitter or Instagram to enter!
Portrait has been absurdly well-received & this tender summer-strung launch only served to drive that home, so thank you for all your support, whether or not you were able to make it. Near the end of this book there are three lines that read, “bless every / single person who has loved me / loud as sage smells when crushed”, & I hope you know I mean you. Thank you for echoing my ceaseless want. Thank you for clapping until my ears rang. Thank you for buying me glasses of wine. Thank you for your curiosity & your whispers & your hope. Thank you for loving this book so loudly that no part of me remembers the imprint of silence. You are the best memory this wild aching heart knows how to hold. xoxo