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Snapshots | April 5th

Many long nights lately. I am on new medication—my old antidepressants have not been working, so the doctor prescribed another sort—and insomnia as a side effect has hit me hard. Upside: restless poetry sessions, penned with only the stars for company. Downside: drooping eyelids in classes the next day. And so far no signs of great improvement, depression-wise. Still: I hold out hope, as always. I am sure there are brighter days on the horizon.

And many beautiful things that have happened since I last shared life updates with you: most notably, I have been published in two of my favourite journals of ever, The Rising Phoenix Review and Hypertrophic Literary. These are rather belated announcements, but I assure you, most definitely no less excited: my pieces “Cherry Blossoms” (on spring & girls loving girls) and “The Wolf Pack Welcomes November” (on anxiety & winter winds) are published in these gorgeous volumes. Do give them a look, loves. You will find such enchantment tucked inside.

And—last announcement, I promise!—another luminous piece of news: I was lucky enough to be the recipient of a national gold medal in the Scholastic Art & Writing Awards, for the third year in a row. I am absolutely blown away to be honoured once more, especially alongside so many other talented young writers. While the past two years have been for poetry, this year one of my fantasy pieces was chosen: How to Talk to Imaginary Things. It was an older piece which I revamped for the awards, and I am so very delighted to hear that it paid off. Will be sharing the refurbished piece with my Patreon lovelies soon.

Other than these wondrous things, mainly I have been hard at work studying for AP mock exams. I am taking AP classes for the first time this year, and so I must admit I am slightly (read: immensely) nervous; good vibes would be so appreciated. School ends in a few short months, and I am clinging on by my fingernails until it is over at last!

And how have you been going lately? To my fellow writers, is Camp NaNo treating you well, if you have chosen to undertake it? Do share with me; I would so love to hear about how things have been in your part of the universe. xx

Snapshots | March 28th

I am home once more! The road trip was, alas, not the best I have ever been on; we had some technical difficulties with the car, amongst other things. So these past three days were rather anxiety-inducing, but: on a brighter note, I cannot tell you how good it is to be back again. Though I find it difficult to fall in love with Singapore at times, I think that in the end there could never be a place sweeter than the familiar crannies of the home I have created for myself here.

Spring break, too, has ended; I am submitting now to the routines that school has foisted upon me, in preparation for exams in a few short weeks. Curiously enough, I am not too stressed out quite yet. Possibly this will change soon, but for now: I am finding peace in revisions, focusing less on the exams to come and more on the motions of studying & memorisation. I cannot go so far as to say that I enjoy it, but all the same: settling down with chemistry notes or English flashcards or pre-calculus equations holds a regularity that I can embrace amongst waves of anxiety. These grooves are smooth, soft, comforting.

In other news: I am working hard on the Exciting Thing I have been mentioning here and there. I will likely be announcing it to my Patreon supporters tomorrow, so please do join in the magic if you have not already; I would love to share it with you, as well! It has been a beautiful process working on this project, and I cannot wait to announce it publicly as soon as it is ready. Such endless wonder.

Things I have been loving, lately:

Jodi Picoult novels; I am this close to finishing My Sister's Keeper and stalling the ending because I do not want it to be over. Maroon 5 songs; the new album, aside from having a lovely name, is overflowing with gut wrenching & gorgeous music. Podcasts; especially loving Welcome to Nightvale, Serial, The Minimalists, and Modern Love at the moment. (Alas, I am unsure how to link to them, but I'm sure if you simply Google them you should be able to find them.)

And how have you lovelies been?

Snapshots | February 9th

Rather shockingly, I am alive and kicking—at least enough to write this post—after that monstrous bout of fever! I have spent most of the Chinese New Year weekend in bed, but I have gained permission to venture out into the world, which is quite a relief. Mostly I have been reading things (I'm currently reading Sarah Ruhl's 100 Essays I Don't Have Time to Write; such a fascinating set of meditations on life and theatre and storytelling, especially recommended for actors & playwrights) and watching films (I saw The Breakfast Club and cried hard enough for my fever to spike a few degrees), but in between: I have indeed been getting work done!

Half Mystic is falling into place; submissions are rolling in, especially for music, which is really quite wonderful. I have been hard at work on the new website, as well; our aim is to spotlight our blog posts more, and I think we are certainly reaching that. I am so excited to unveil it for you.

In addition, I am working on a small side project—a literary magazine at our school. It has been dormant for a few years, but I am joining the team to help bring it back to life once more. It is always fun to work on literary magazines, and though I don't have a large hand in it (mostly I am the advisor, since I have some experience on the staff of several magazines), I am looking forward to seeing it come to life.

And finally—perhaps the most exciting thing—I am headed off to England!! Perhaps you will remember that last year I went to Cebu as part of a school trip, and this is the same program— but instead, I am travelling to London as part of a theatre program. I absolutely cannot wait for it; we will be seeing four or five shows as well as going to behind the scenes to quite a few, and it will be so wonderful. I will be leaving on Saturday evening, and I am counting down the hours!

And how have you lovelies been? We have not gotten a chance to speak in quite awhile, and so I would love to know what stories I have missed. Please do let me know in the comments—I am so very excited to hear about it. xx